Life…

I’m sitting in a room somewhere in Europe…in the dark staring outside the window. It’s almost 12 midnight.

I wonder, is this what life is about? Is this what I have become? Is this all there is?

I wonder at the emptiness in my heart…but then its fleeting because when I count my blessings my heart is filled.

Life is full of paradoxes..one minute I am sad, the next I am on a joyful high…

Why do I let people control my emotions? Why do I let people have so much power to alter my mood?

You call me heartless…I hear you. Maybe I am because I haven’t allowed myself to feel.

But ask the guy from a few months ago…I felt something for him.So I think I just have the wisdom to know that I cannot fall for everyone I meet.

This is not about love though, this is about life… I really wish I could care what someone else thinks of me.

I really wish I could apologize for being who I am…

Why is love…those three words “I love you”…why are they so important?

Maybe I am the one who needs help…

As I stare outside my window at a few minutes to midnight.

Silence has a way of communicating, maybe if I listen longer I will find the answers…198

I know myself because I have dared to be silent and stare at nothing….

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2 thoughts on “Life…

  1. To conceive of a purpose for one’s life and to live according to those convictions is not easy. Most of the time one will feel lonely on that path. Everything may seem fine but still the feeling of emptiness persists simply because you are traveling that path alone, although you are attending to your calling. I know because I have been alone most of my life. Sometimes, you may think nobody cares about you, nobody understands you or nobody shares in your dreams, passions, interests or your calling but that is not entirely true.

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