Month: September 2017

What have I been up to in September?

I got this idea of formatting a reflection of the month from a fellow blogger, Maria Nabatanzi. I thought it was a really cool concept and I modified it for this post. Please check out her original post “Taking Stock: September 2017” at http://happy2bflawed.blogspot.com.  Below, you will find my September stock take…in other words…what I have been up to in the month of September:

Reading: She No Longer Weeps by Tsitsi Dangarembga, a Zimbabwean author. I finished reading this short stage play in two days. I went on a bit of a rant on twitter about it, see below:

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Writing: I want to write a detailed review about the book I spoke about above “She No Longer Weeps.  I have also written some drafts for this blog and managed a few posts in this month. I am more focused on producing some academic writing, but my blog keeps me sane so I always come back when I am procrastinating.  I do try and maintain a balance though, for my loyal readers and for my academic career.

Social Life: wouldn’t you want to know 🙂

Wishing: that time would stop moving so fast so I can spend more time with my queen (my mum). I love being at home and I am making good use of the time. My other wishes will never see the light of day, LOL…they stay in my head.

Can’t get enough of: Insecure, the series. OMG, I can relate on so many levels, plus the main character is a black woman!! Go ISSA!!!

 

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  •  Bruno Mars’ song “Versace on the Floor”…sigh.  Do yourself a favour if you like the 80s kinda vibe. I will tell you more about how this song makes me feel one day…

Trying out: fitness!! Good Lord, yes I have decided to start working out. I have some areas on my body that I feel need to be toned and shaped 😉 but let me be the first to tell you, it is not going well. I am just not made for the gym or any kind of hard physical activity, plus I hate waking up in the morning. I am not sure about this one, hence I AM TRYING IT OUT.

Worrying: I constantly worry about my Ph.D. although I know I am not supposed to worry as a child of God.  The other day, I could have killed a friend of mine who suggested that I may not be taking Ph.D. seriously. You never mock someone’s Ph.D. journey or make jokes about it, EVER!!! I am always on edge about it and worry about getting it right. My friend is very lucky he is all the way in the UK, that saved him from being strangled. I *heart* him though, so he is forgiven.

Knowing: I know for sure that I am loved, I am beautiful inside and out, I am blessed every single day and I have a bright future ahead of me. I make plans every day and take actions towards achieving my goals. I practice positive affirmations on a daily basis. One thing I am absolutely certain of is that, if God is for me, no one can be against me. I am covered by the blood of Jesus.

Thinking: about the next few months and my upcoming vacation in a bit. I am so looking forward to some fun with the girls. Location unknown.

Needing: Ivy Ejam’s Journal called #MindingHerBusiness. As soon as I am able, I will purchase this woman’s guide to success and how to live a happy and fulfilling life. She gives me life on her live Instagram feed. Do yourself a favour and check her out on mindingherbusiness.com or follow mindingherbusiness on IG. BTW, my birthday is in four months, so gift ideas *hint hint*

Grateful for: This list is long, but I will keep it short. First of all, the gift of life. I lost my dad a few months ago and although I know he is in a better place, it is never easy to know someone you once knew and loved is gone. I am grateful that I have come to a place of accepting it and forgiving myself for things not said or done when he was still alive. RIP DAD. Secondly, I am grateful for good internet in Zim…that’s a relief. Gone are the days of load-shedding every day and I can actually get some work done. As always, I am grateful for my family and the few people I call friends. Lastly, my beautiful mind.

Planning: I prefer to keep my plans private, you never know who is truly cheering you on. Most humans are secretly plotting your downfall so I will pass on this one. You will only see results.

 

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Stay blessed,

GG

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Exploring Mindfulness

I recently stumbled across my consciousness; not that it ever went anywhere, but I came face to face with it for the first time as an adult.  All I can say is WOW!! I wonder, how have I been living all this while??? Since I started tapping into my spiritual being, for that is what she is, I am in awe of the power and peace I have living inside me. And it has been in there all this while…

We are too busy, we cannot even stop to smell the roses or be fully present in the moment. We are always in a hurry to do this and that. One day I found myself really stopping and listening…I looked within…I spoke to the inner being…my consciousness, and I feel rejuvenated. And the funny thing is, I think it all happened by accident. I was in my feelings about something, I was doing what I do best…overthinking…and it just HAPPENED. I think it was the right time and I welcomed it.  Now I am practicing it.

When you practice stillness and mindfulness, nothing just happens to you. You are aware of every emotion; good or bad. You reflect on moments; pleasant or otherwise. You realize you are ALIVE, for a reason, not just EXISTING. You experience LIFE for what it is.

 

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Since my discovery of my spiritual being, I have changed my mindset. I worry less and I take care of my mind and body more. Gone are the days of mindless scrolling on social media, looking at people I don’t even talk to, living their fake or not so fake lives. Point is, it no longer matters to me. I now evaluate what goes into my mind, because I understand now more than ever, that what I feed into it, becomes ME. I would rather listen to a motivational podcast when I have my morning coffee than follow social media gossip or text someone whose conversation I do not enjoy, just because it is polite to do so.  There has been a shift.

I have found myself, in the sense that, I am now fully aware of what I want and what I don’t want. Guess I can say I have finally matured…

So, if you notice a slight difference in me, this is why. I am WOKE….finally!!!