I felt the strong pull to send a message of forgiveness. The voice was still, quiet but so powerful. I ignored it at first, but it came again. Insistent but not forceful. God is calling me into forgiveness. Something happened in my family ten years ago that caused a severe rift in our relationships. There was so much anger masking the pain that the incident caused for so many years. Ten years later, the pain lingers because of silence, bitterness and a lack of forgiveness. Any small trigger, and we are back to ten years ago.
Unforgiveness keeps us in a childlike state, we refuse to grow. My God does not want me to live like this. I have to forgive for my peace of mind and my sanity. We may never be best friends, but forgiveness needs to happen. We may only ever love each other from a distance, but forgiveness needs to happen. I don’t know what the outcome will be, but I have peace. Following the voice of the Spirit allows me to stop thinking about myself, my pride and my ego. It allows me to have compassion for those I have hurt and who now hurt me in retaliation. I have to break the cycle.
God has forgiven me many times. Who am I not to forgive those who offend me? I take this step and allow God to do his work to heal us. Obedience is not an easy thing, but it is the only way to please God.
If you love me, obey my commandments.John14:15
I guess we are beginning September free and not in bondage. God is good!
Happy new month everyone.